Scream my brains out --> Lose my mind --> Find MySELF

Today's self-care is brought to you by Edvard Munch…

Well, no not really.

Listen, my plan today is to have a torrential tantrum…and allow myself to lose my mind.

If you know me I'm the type of person who is perpetually looking at the glass half FULL. 

HOPE is my thing.

I’m enthusiastic and generally pretty joyful…unless I’m really not.

This last week took me out. I do not feel like myself. The state of our world has me amped up in all the worst ways (like so many).

And although I have upped my self-care and soul-care activities this past week and will continue to do so…

I need to lose my damn mind!

I need to let go and surrender to what I am feeling (which isn't pretty) and allow myself to really feel it. All of the ICK. The rage, despair, emptiness, the WTFP...for our world and my little world.

Why?

This energy needs to be moved but also honored. 

I was trying to shove it away and self-care my way AROUND it (old behavior).

But, as I got lost in trying to avoid…I remembered the only way to change is THROUGH…

So today’s soul-care and self-care is my version of The Scream embodied.

I plan to rage like a toddler because oh my goodness I need to release what is pent up inside.

I plan to avoid social media (mostly) and avoid feeling everyone else's feelings and DEEPEN into mine and my own awareness.

Here is how I am going to do it if this calls to you:

1. I'm going to re-read all the things that have me in a pissed off state of being (through journaling...not back on the socials)...and I'm going to connect to all those feelings.

2. I'll put on some intense music...I'll likely go for some instrumental sort (think movie score) and I am going to jump around, roll around on the floor, kick the air, scream, cry, and let mySELF be a big brat that is full of mySELF. Again, welcoming in BIG TODDLER energy that the world isn't going MY way!

3. I will embody this as fully as I can. So you can probably imagine...I'm gonna do this ALL BY MY SELFELELF 🎶🎶🎶🎶. Be as swept up as I can...As if I ALONE am the ONLY ONE IN THE WORLD who cares for poor, old, angry, crazy Mary...and the state of our world and all the injustice and divide.

4. When I am SPENT I plan to light a candle, sit quietly and journal anything left as an offering to the Divine and ask the Divine to fill me up with compassion, grace, and love.

5. Finally, I'll do a restorative heart opening asana, a mudra, and a chant.

But, honestly I am open to just going with the flow.

Would you try this?